Saturday, April 18, 2015

sitting in the evening sun

The rays of the sun are warm even as the day draws to a close.  

The snow has melted, the crocus and the daffodils bloom.  The miracles of nature both a testimony and a reminder to life, it's cycles, and the permanence in the impermanence.  I am reminded of these lines from our teacher here at the institute.  After a deep guided relaxation, towards the end he guides us back to awareness and you hear his voice " rest your body, the finite in the infinite".

I close my eyes.   A few more moments to relish this sunshine, before my reverie changes to "eat your dinner before the evening session"...

Spring is hope for more sunshine, and a summer that awaits in its shadow.  

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Why did I choose my parents

Odd title for this blog, yet that's exactly what just dawned.

Where am I and why the realization now? 

To give a perspective begins with this comment of "why we are drawn to certain paths, roads, detours etc".   I am driving towards The Himalayan Institute which is in Honesdale, Pennsylvania and after six hours of driving in the non stop rain I decide to call it a night.  I am redirected to the Country Inn and Suites in Cortland, NY.  
After a nice hot whirlpool soak I sit by the fireplace.   The calm is overcoming and I begin to feel a wave of tranquility.  

Later in the night I do some past life regression hypnosis with Brian Weiss on his YouTube video.  I have been on this self reflective week long expedition since the Lunar eclipse.   Each night going a little deeper into the past realm. 

So here I am casually walking in for breakfast, past the hour that the girl at the reception mentioned, and lo and behold there is abundance of food.  Eating my fruit and sipping my chai I look out this window and "bing" the answer appears.  

my parents before my birth
The reason why I chose my parents was for who they were, and also because of their extended family which I inherited.  They provided security of family, tribe, and food and shelter.  They securely ground my foundation in this physical realm.  The love and attention of the extended family compensated for not getting sole attention of the parents.  We moved a lot of homes and locations.  My father was in the Air Force and yes I was born in an Air Force base.  Planes, their sounds and their flights were as part of my cellular existence as the sunshine of the tropics.   My fathers colleagues and others became the extended family.  Their children became the "extended siblings", relationships forming for what seemed like a lifetime. 

The security of my existence never questioned.  

Now I move and I relocate at a drop of a hat. Walking or driving, I even choose new routes to discover.  

Education was important and it instilled in me that life is the learning, the lessons.  I developed the curiosity to discover.  

I see this clearly and my own purpose begins to emerge.  Knowing who I am comes from knowing where and why I came to this life, it is what propels me to be and do what I do. 

Who am I is then not the question I grapple.  Instead I am reminded of how effectively I live.  How do I fulfill what is mine to do.   It is this life path.   This is the  purpose.   

Saturday, April 4, 2015

Living with passion

To find the life purpose is to find what we like to do, and how we like to live when we are by ourself, it is our ‘passion'.  It is not to show outwardly, to brag, or to impress.   

When we are focused only on the outward then we are not fulfilling the purpose.  The result or the goal is an outcome and cannot be the life purpose.  

Be with people and around others but be equally with yourself.  
Say little, listen more. 
Let another find their own answer and their own path.  
When asked, help the other, if you cannot then say it.  
Come from a place of knowing yourself, your doubts and fears.  
Work through the fears and doubts. Doubts are are at times intuition. 
Live within your ‘means', in any given moment, be they financial, mental, emotional, or even the limitations of the body.  
Make regular efforts to extend and or maintain the edges, the boundary, of these ‘means’ and  limitations.  
Just like a daily practice of physical exercise for the body, also do breath exercises.  
Learn through books and learn by seeing yourself and others.  
The heart is the centre of the spirit feel from here.  
Feel compassion.  
The third eye is the home of the soul, see from here and paths will open.  
Move and travel to new places so you can see yourself through many 'mirrors'.  
See the story, create a new story through living your passion. 

Friday, April 3, 2015

Time for me! A full moon lunar eclipse.

I wonder what to name the title of this post? I decide to to write my thoughts instead...the title will happen.

The planetary movements, the shifts, the alignments, and the holidays celebrated by ancient traditions make me think of my existence.   An existence amidst the labels, definitions, and the physical body.

I listen to music tones for the upper chakras, the sixth and the seventh.  These chakras are a part of the physical and the material.   The seventh chakra or energy wheel begins to oscillate between the third and the fourth dimension.  Awareness of the six senses bring and keep us in the third dimension of time and space.   The moments of pause takes us into the fourth or the fifth depending on our personal practice of mindful living.

The moon is waxing into its fullness in less than 24 hours.    The earth's position will be in the middle, as the sun, the moon, and the earth form a straight line.  Its a lunar eclipse.  A time when all feelings and the resulting actions get intensified, exponentially.

I think of the association of the earth, moon, and the sun with our own physical and emotional bodies.

The earth being the 'root', where we feel grounded, to our sense of belonging, the tribe, family, and to the physical shelter our home.   The security, or lack, of being rooted affects the area governed by the moon.  Here we find the balance in relationships with the physical.  Where our personal relationships, our creativity, sexuality, and feelings are evoked or suppressed.   With a balance, or the ability to find that balance comes an inner assurance, self assurance,  the self-confidence.   Which is then the area governed by the sun, the solar plexus,  the home of one's 'action' or the 'will power'.   The fire that burns in our belly, the passion which drives and motivates us resides in the solar plexus.

Metaphorically we take the emotions associated with the 'earth', mix it with 'water' (the moon affects the water), combine the intention and will power from the fire of the 'sun', and live our daily life.  This balance, of the emotions and thoughts, associated with these planets, is important in allowing us to live with empathy, trust, and respect.   Compassion for ourself and others.

So what does this alignment signify.   A change in our expectations, sometimes what we are 'accustomed' to gets "off balance".

Are the intentions that are guided by 'known' expectations, being challenged?

The will power, and the feelings, has to contend with the material (values)...take time to understand and ask oneself: what is being challenged?

We can choose this time to go deep within, or we can use this as an opportunity to be on two extremes, staying only in our feelings or in our action.    The earth in the centre will pull us back, whatever values and structures 'define' us will hold us and guide our path.

Feeling the earth under my feet, going for long walks, a long drive.  Taking this day to go within, introspection as I notice the feelings that each moment, each encounter, brings to the surface.

As the moon comes to being full, its also a time to begin letting go.  Maybe one intention, something that seems doable, a habit that is not serving us needs to be released.