Tuesday, March 31, 2020

What the coronavirus is showing me, the meaning of faith!

I learn to communicate with myself.  Me and I, there is no veil of pretence between what I honestly feel and what mask I need to wear on those feelings. 

I can scream and shout, stay in bed, eat all I want, do or not, be or not! Through all this I come to a point, where I can hug and befriend myself.  All my experiences - through all stages of life, the relating and the undoing of those relationships, they all come and sit beside me.  I wade through them all, I begin to find a glimpse of myself.

Like what about triggers?  How is this information, news, person, or conversation triggering me?  If its too much to handle, a wave of sadness, tears pour.  Sometime I will share, sometime I will hide this pain, not out of shame, rather out of compassion.  When I sit with these feelings, a light shines, the light of gratitude for all I still am and all I still have.  I place my hands on my heart, I breathe and I bring to attention those who are suffering, to those who as their job or duty are in the front line, helping treating and providing relief.  They too are me. 

I remember as I have the right to be in my 'space' so has the other.  Not to force myself or explain myself, rather stay present, encourage through being attentive.

As the 'me and i' become close, and I am able to forgive myself and be my own friend, I might have the capacity to hold you and give you strength. 

Keeping connected, encouraging myself and the other, we will keep drifting through this unknown!  I choose to believe this, as the rituals fall away, this becomes my faith.

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

Whimsical & Existing: pause for us all on routine existing

Whimsical & Existing: pause for us all on routine existing: We are humans. We are flawed, restless and going so quickly. We are being given a massive pause to look at ourselves. To see what we are doi...