Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Jupiter in Virgo - a return after 12 years

Jupiter the planet of abundance.  It magnifies the energy, it is also referred to as the planet of abundance.
Jupiter is the celestial body for the sixth chakra, the ajna, the command center where intuition and insight reside.

Jupiter returns once every 12 years into a specific sun sign.  And here it is in Virgo.

I recollect the past, what was happening in my life 12 years ago.  What were the drivers or the forces of energy at that time. 

I was living and working in Massachusetts.  I recall the times spent there with fondness yet my heart belonged in Toronto.  I followed my heart and decided to return home. 

Today I sit back and review the "self" that I knew then.  I realize I cannot possibly know who I was then, because now I am looking from a different perspective.  My filters have changed.  We can never really look back at the past, we will not see who we were, we can only see ourself in the now.  

The last two months have been an inward journey.  It's the time to follow that heart, again.   I feel a shift in my perception.  A lightness in my being.  A sadness I do feel.  It's like I am facing some inevitable.  There is a fine veil and I am not afraid to look beyond.  I don't know what I see, I do know that whatever it is, it will be.  The words of an old song come to thought.
que sera sera


I write my story as it unfolds.  Make my choices and walk the path.
A turtle, it carries its home on its back.   I carry mine in the heart.  

Sitting on a park bench in my old stomping grounds of Nathan Philips Square I look up at the sky and capture this vision.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Light and shadow

Thinking of a vast open space, seems like a desert.  I see a shadow and then notice the rock casting its shadow.  What is this shadow, only an obstruction of the light.  My glance wanders away. 

In the inner scape, dark shadows confuse us, maybe it's the thoughts and feelings casting a shadow.  Maybe my inner glance will wander towards the light, in that brief moment I feel an uplifting a lightness of being.  
Another thought and another feeling enters the inner space. 

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Hotel Villa Cala Airport

I land at Juan Santa Maria airport in Costa Rica.  Its past 10 pm local time.  The airport is empty and the the other passengers who disembark with me walk right up to the waiting custom officers.   No lineups and soon I am outside feeling a breeze lifting any sign of travel fatigue.  

I had booked online and decided to give htis place a try.  Without air conditioning, the breeze coming through the open window, the sound of the swaying palm trees, I am transported back to my parents home.   The villa calla seems like a home, the layout its furniture and its gardens, are all very familiar. 
We are on the flight path, but the infrequent flights are not disturbing.   The hum of the traffic is far in the distance.




I am given a choice of breakfast, and choose to enjoy the local dish of rice and beans called gallo pinto.  I sit with my coffee by the pool.  A yellow butterfly flits and dances around, a white one joins in, and my meditation is being enthralled by nature.  

I realize we have free will, and when we surrender that will and its thoughts, then we too feel as if we are spirited and free.    

I go for a walk, I check my emails, write an articel for Luknow Tribune.  I hear the sound of the blender, out walks Carlos with this drink.  
He shows me the tree in the yard, its fruit is called Cas.  

I remind myself to find the exact spellings so I can locate it on the internet.  

Monday, June 22, 2015

Realization

That I read and interpret conversations in ways that fall outside the norm.

That I have learned to read and re read to understand what is being communicated.

That I see beyond the confines of the structure and the boundary.  

That I don't realize when I have moved into the area that is unknown to the other.  This ambiguity must be so frustrating for those who deal with me. 

That I taste the essence while the other might still be measuring the depths and the heights of the water. I am sorry for the resulting confusion.  

That I look at life completely in reverse.  I have lived in a loving family and have tried to learn the norms of a 'normal' thinking and way of living.  
Nothing helps me, what has finally saved me is this realization.
I get that my brain will always interpret life the way it can.  

I will continue to learn by immersing myself in different situations to enable me to see how I read the situation differently from the other. 
That I will speak less, write more.  
Ask questions, or walk alone to hear my thoughts.
Listen and process.