Saturday, December 31, 2011

as the year turns from 2011 to 2012…from 4 to 5

do we choose the moment, or does a moment choose us,,,do we define life, or does the life define us…

"be in the world but not of the world", becomes clear when we begin to see association and identification with the structures, checkpoints, milestones…

we are born, the existence of a body is a structure, we grow with associations, checkpoints and milestones, each individual form becomes a world…

the outer world and the inner are aligned…how many things and how many thoughts we accumulate is a choice…

through the clearing, we begin to see space, in this space we feel a sense of freedom…

often as i lie under the open sky, with the earth beneath me, i look up, i feel i am soaring, flying like those birds...the feeling comes from the space, uncluttered space which i find inside me…

driving down the parkway, keeping my eyes on the road which is slippery, its lined with trees, each branch covered in glistening snow, its the moment, captured and imprinted…WOW!!!

this moment…peace and harmony

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Balance - in yoga, in life

The balance is the Oneness.

When duality flows into the non, we feel balanced.

When the four basic needs of food, shelter, sex and self-preservation are met, we feel balanced. A tendency towards the extremes of the basic needs, generally reflects that an imbalance is being compensated.

If balance is the Oneness, then where does the imbalance originate. Possible from our thoughts, that define who we are, from the expectations, those from our minds and those imposed by other minds. Its is how we are conditioned, by 'my' identity and by 'society'.

The attention to this awareness awakens us, it guides us in re-connecting to finding the balance.

We begin the 'seeking' and the 'search'…there is so much 'stuff' to swim through. The challenge becomes clear, its the thoughts and the fear which become the boundary.

We want to throw everything out, we want to see ourselves in a new light, we move, physically, live a different life, find different ways, see how others live; the four basic instincts are with us.

Travelling, we realize that soon it will be time to move, so lets not get attached. The lesson of non-attachemt is the important one, its the smooth and firm ground on which we build our life, live our life, irrespective of the places and people we meet.

In the clarity space is created.

How does this support the idea of "challenging" our limits, going "beyond the boundaries". For me the "limits" and the "boundaries" are the result of our conditionings, where the mind has filled the free space with fears and the lists of the rights and wrongs. The challenge then seems to be to find that space, which does not need to be filled with the "excitement state"; instead I begin to find the Joy by relishing each moment, then the excitement, wonder and awe of being knows no boundaries and no limitations. I flow, flow like the stream, changing into a river, at times a fast rapid, or becoming the deep ocean.

The Taoist concept of Yin and Yang, defines existence, they co-exist, as one balances the other, without the one the other is not.

In each moment the balance of the Yin and Yang, provides the balance to our life, to living. In the practice of Yoga, in our search for the meaning of life, in seeking love, in loving and in our surrender, when we feel balanced, we live and love with abundance and freedom.

Yin is Hidden, Dark, Cold, Still, Downward, Earth, Calm
Yang is Exposed, Light, Hot, Moving, Upward, Heaven, Excited

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

the day dawns...

Been thinking of random situations, those that happened, and those that didn't…is there a difference, its all in the form of thoughts…either ways they form feelings…so i decide to watch, and see those feelings with the eye of an observer and the heart of a lover/beloved…i soon get bored, its just thoughts, and the feeling of the sun on my face feels better…i make my self a cup of tea, stand by the window and soak in the sunshine, my cells dance with each sun ray…

I follow the sun on my walk, with a sensing that i am looking in from the outside…hmmmm, okay so lets stay with this feeling…the observer walks alongside, watching each step, each passing vehicle, each moment with heightened attention…the walk ends in a bookstore…"Aleph" by Pablo Coelho, I pick up the hardcover copy, put my hand in my coat pocket and remember that I had dropped some money as I walked out the door, but not enough for the book…I see Starbucks, and a peppermint mocha looks doable…browsing through my emails, people watching and i am "absorbed"…

The sun is almost setting as i leave the store, the sensing on the way back home is of Oneness, i am not looking in from the outside, i am in…

Later I download an audio copy of Aleph, should be fun 8 hours of listening…even if i fall asleep in the listening process the dreams will be insightful…i like it...

Saturday, December 10, 2011

in the city, the city of friendship, memories, love and sharing

I am back, in town the place that has the longest associations…last night i was reminded of this connection…sitting amongst friends, some new faces, the energy was familiar. shared laughter, stories, concerns, and i was once again reminded of these words "love is being silly together…", and "when you love, you have no time to judge"…

a glass of wine…smoking a cigarette, shivering in the cold, but so much laughter…for a moment all is forgotten except the realization that each moment is precious…

i am sitting in the kitchen counter, the sun on my back feels good…this is the home of a friend, Nimmi, a friendship spanning 35 years…she laughed the first time she met me i was making dal using a recipe…"tum ko daal bananee bhee nahee atee"…"my gosh, you don't even know how to cook daal?"…that is equivalent to "you don't know how to boil water"…well almost…as daal and rice is the staple everyone eats in their daily meals, where i was born…and our lives and stories, together, separate but somehow intertwined and continued, through babies, fears, tears and laughter…i love you Nimmi, you have always been a friend a sister, tolerant and supportive of all my crazy life choices…the stability, and home that i know will always be there. Good Job, kiddo...

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Dec 6, 2011…thoughts from Casa de Vida

I am packing, last minute stuff, making room, clearing out the external expression of the daily necessities of life….

what i need for the travel, is packed in a small bag, with the trust that whatever else is needed will be found wherever i am, no need to carry the extra baggage...

i close my eyes, the inner eye...and i have withdrawn from my senses...all the senses...the most powerful is my sense that is drawn from my conditioning...i sense a freedom...the judge the guide that is known to "me" is standing in this bright light of awareness...

i relate, interact, live with a clarity, an inner clarity...sometimes i sense a "need" to explain this clariy, "to who" i ask...and i realize that some aspects of "me", are part of the stories, the stories in which there are many souls, with their own conditioning and their ideas and beliefs...these are the associations...

my presence, is not just my soul in these stories, i have a form, a "me" which is linked in with other forms and associations…

i ask myself, what yoga practice brought me to the final savasana? the yamas, the niyamas, our contract with the universe and our commitment to life…the physical asanas, the attention and focused awareness of breathing, life energy, quieting the mind into the single focus, being in a contemplative space in mediation…

ride on the wings of the breath…

i realize what yoga is, its my life expressed in form;

in each moment there is a union to the "i" recognised as the free spirit, and the "me", in its association....the yoga that brings this union, the yoga of living, is savasana on the mat, and the living each mindful moment in life…i have mastered yoga, now i have to master living…

it begins to tie in, when i live each moment with the same guidelines, then the yoga happens in each thought, idea, action, feeling…

the same practice that brings me to mastering the savasana, surrenders me to life...i feel alive in this complete release...

life is my teacher…

Monday, December 5, 2011

my ship...

is my life contained in this human form,
i sail…

sometime i see land i reach out, yes i will stay here, the earth will nourish me, i will once again feel the ground beneath my feet…

the oceans too are part of the earth, i pull anchor, i sail again…
movement reminds me there is life…
the spirit is free, do not imprison the spirit behind the bars of conditioning…

no seeking, no searching,
give me a moment to pack myself,
i reach out to my inner anchor and i am ready to move…

Love anchors, moves and stays...

"An anchor is a device, normally made of metal, that is used to connect a vessel to the bed of a body of water to prevent the vessel from drifting due to wind or current. The word derives from Latin ancora, which itself comes from the Greek ἄγκυρα (ankura ).[1][2]
Anchors can either be temporary or permanent. A permanent anchor is used in the creation of a mooring, and is rarely moved"…
~wiki~